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<h2 id="文本"><a class="markdownIt-Anchor" href="#文本"></a> 文本</h2>
<h4 id="书籍"><a class="markdownIt-Anchor" href="#书籍"></a> 书籍</h4>
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<p>《不原谅也没关系》</p>
<p>这本书改变了我看人的角度。通常来说，将人视为天生且不会改变的是很便利的做法。实际上，许多被我们归结为固有性格特质的行为是个体在长期创伤环境中形成的防御机制，也就是所谓的 4F 反应。我理解到，他人的许多地方都可以通过他们所处的环境来推测出来。借此，我暗自分析了身边的许多人，也了解了他们许多。站在这种角度去看，会发现自己能够理解原先不可理喻的蠢人或者坏人们。但这也不意味着我需要无底线包容他们的越界行为。</p>
<p>不过，我对这种概念还在缓慢消化中。生气的时候还是会偷偷将对方视为「一辈子的恶人」来数落。</p>
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<h2 id="游戏"><a class="markdownIt-Anchor" href="#游戏"></a> 游戏</h2>
<h2 id="视听"><a class="markdownIt-Anchor" href="#视听"></a> 视听</h2>
<h2 id="经历"><a class="markdownIt-Anchor" href="#经历"></a> 经历</h2>
<h4 id="地点"><a class="markdownIt-Anchor" href="#地点"></a> 地点</h4>
<p>我是南北家庭出身，但是在北方（山东）居住的时间更长久，也更融入到当地的文化中。因为小时候在福建的生活并不快乐，所以我对那个地方带有一些自己的小偏见。</p>
<p>在中国生活了十一年后，我随着父母搬来纽约定居。无论是新生活带来的压力和恐惧、同父母之间每日每夜的争执，还是日后难以融入当地的人群中，都让我倍受折磨，也构成了我青少年时期的底色。上高中时，我已然是一个对社交感到恐惧且自负的人，这也导致了未来一系列糟糕的事情。</p>
<p>尽管在高中期间我离开了家，不再需要每天和父母产生摩擦，但也让我陷入了另一个泥潭，也就是和室友之间的爱恨情仇。我们之间发生了很多，也改变了彼此很多。毫无疑问的是，我们互相是对方最亲密的人，至今也是。</p>
<p>在美国的这十几年，我从未回到中国去，导致我对中国的认知严重脱节。不过也正因此，你会在本站看到更多与美国境内相关的内容。</p>
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